Your life's purpose as a healer or light-worker, is first of all to heal yourself.
The finding and creating of your own medicine for your challenges and obstacles for later on to share it with the world, is your main purpose.
This also means that every healer and light-worker has chosen a very specific set of challenges - that may be physical or emotional - that the first part of their life is occupied with searching for the solution to. Your issues will turn up in every experience you have, and it will seem like your way forward is blocked. And in a way, this is true, because your Ego is looking after you by reminding you that hey, this here is your focus right now, and don't be deterred!
Probably you have already felt the call to ease the burden or heal others in different ways. You may even have chosen an education or way of living that allows you to do this. But, until you have created your OWN medicine, your issues will always pop up making themselves very visible and felt, hindering you in going ahead of yourself and building your “house” (or successful biz or career) before you are done with the fundament, before you have healed yourself and completed the medicine you are to share with the world.
This journey is usually a journey into the “underworld” or what we often refer to as “the dark night of the Soul”, (or dark night of the Ego, as I call it). But rest assured in your Self, in God / Love / Universe, that even this part where you question everything and nothing or no “medicine” others provide you with is the solution to what ails you, is EXACTLY what you need and already have planned to go through!
Creating your own medicine is the most important undertaking of your life, and it will also take the most time, energy and effort. It will take all your courage, stamina and faith you can muster. It is truly the Hero's journey, where you are wandering in the mist finding you were given a map that looks nothing like the terrain you are walking! In the end you have no other option than throwing out that map drawn by others, and start drawing your own from your present terrain.
THAT map; that medicine, is your gift to the world. THAT map - and that only – will fit the terrain of your soul and your life and will be the very thing that heals you, makes you a sovereign being, and that gives your life the acute purpose you ave been longing for.
And it is so worth it!
And I am here to tell you that you WILL get there if you decide you want to, and to ask you to surrender to life, love and what IS; not clinging to what you thought it would look like, or the great ideas that your mind thinks would be best!
I'm cheering for you, and hey, do it for your own sake, because you need and deserve it, and because nothing else will fulfill you and make you whole.