At the time when I was still into religion and was a member of a church in Copenhagen, I was having constant issues with the pastor of the church. One day I was visiting with my therapist in an attempt to understand all the turmoil going on between us. The final drop, was when I had changed the day of my birthday -party to make it possible for my pastor to attend, and when she didn't turn up anyway, I was prepared to cancel it.
My therapist was quick to point out that I had made my pastor more important than myself, as I'd made HER the guest of honor of MY birthday celebration, and even though I didn't agree, I was open to explore our relationship because it was giving me so much pain...Aaaargh...!
My therapist suggested that I visualize my pastor sitting opposite me in a chair, and when I'd clearly communicated to her how I felt about her letting me down for my party (and other stuff ;) ), I was going to let her go by making her smaller and smaller and finally disappearing altogether. But the incredible thing that happened, was that in the chair where she had sat, instead I now saw so clearly a see-through, shadowy Line sitting opposite me!
I gasped in surprise and wonder as I here very specifically saw how I had put myself out there (where I didn't belong) and let another person take my own place!
My therapist then suggested that I swap chairs to sit at the place of my shadow-self and see what she wanted to communicate to me. But the surprising thing was that once my butt hit the chair, I only managed to sit there a few seconds, because the sheer terror and fear of that part of myself overwhelmed me totally! I jumped up again, and spent the rest of that session in deep agony and confusion. Now I know that what I saw was my Ego.
A few years passed before I could make sense of what had happened that day, but the memory has stood out so clearly in my mind all these years.
I will never forget how excruciating it felt to be separated from myself; I will never forget the pain I inflicted on myself by putting a part of me onto another person, away from me, away from my center.
But through that work, through that pain, daring to confront it, experience it and interact with it – by surrendering to it – a journey started with many more encounters (most of which have been slightly more pleasant and giving than the first one, I must add) where I have developed such a rich and gratifying relationship with my her, my Ego.
My Ego has taught me SO much about myself, my beliefs and my previous experiences (including previous lives), the world, and other people, and by seeing her, by accepting her and holding her in patience and love, she has totally transformed from a feeble, fear-ridden shadow into a breathtaking entity and my most powerful, wise guide!
I am SO grateful to her for being my most supportive, fierce helper. For holding on, never giving up in spite of all the trials and tribulations me and my Higher Self has put her through!
Today, I have even centered my business around our discoveries together, and one of my greatest passions is to teach and help others connect with their own Ego's and accept the role as our Earthly Guide, that makes sure we go through just everything we need to. S/he helps us to expand into those areas we already decided to explore even before we incarnated here on earth, and through that darkness and confusion, when the mist is lifting, gives us a new and acutely clear view of where we are and what we are doing here on earth.
Are you curious to meet your own Ego in a beautiful ritual? I would love to meet you to facilitate this meeting for you, so go over to read about my offer and book a free appointment with me here.