A thank-you note to the Universe
Sometimes my heart just pours over with gratefulness and happiness for all I have.
I'm sitting here in our new house in Denmark, and I am safe, warm, sheltered and loved. I have SO much. First of all I'm thinking of my best friend and soul-mate Henke. Just that I found him in the middle of an extremely challenging period in my life, proves to me that miracles actually DO happen and that the Law of Attraction sometimes is null and void as our Soul had greater plans for us.
According to my vibrations, I shouldn't have met anyone as wonderful as him.
According to how I felt about myself, it still takes me back that I met someone that completely and utterly accepts me, loves me for who I am, and that stands unwavering and faithfully by my side like he does. He supports me and has my back no matter what I do and what I feel. He has already proven over long periods of time to stand by me when I had nothing to give but existing. He has no hesitations about any of my sometimes lofty and just a little risky projects I launch myself into. He cheers me on and gives me all the support he can in everything I do.
I know. Sounds too good to be true, right? I'm not saying he is The Perfect Man. He has human traits like everyone else ( ;)). But what I need the most – he definitely has in abundance. So how did I get to be this lucky??! I guess I have what he needs the most too – at least that's what he says, even though I sometimes have my doubts, to be honest. There is definitely a connection of the hearts, and our Soul has had great visions and plans from the start.
Sometimes, your Soul and The Universe co-creates miracles because you have a Destiny to fulfill; You have people to connect with and Soul-family to love.
This is when the natural laws become null and void, and the world comes to a halt.
It happens for everyone.
It happens for you too – and you will recognize this in your heart reading this.
My children is another Wonder that makes my heart sing. I have a beautiful, kind-hearted nearly-grown-up daughter who has slowly become my closest girl-friend too. Watching her grow up and unfold her strong, sensitive personality, also makes me believe that this Universe is a good and supportive place. Her love for me is overwhelming at times – she is fierce in her protectiveness and loyalty to me, and her generosity is legendary. Wow. How did I get to be this lucky??!
My 6-year-old son makes me wobbly in the knees and my heart quiver by his sheer existence. He has the sweetest face, and I love listening to him trying to form sentences and explain the little events in his life. He is a very active and sometimes feisty little man, and he most definitely has been a knight in a previous life, as his love for swords and all things weapon is totally acute. When he cuddles my arm, closes his eyes and tells me he loves me – well, the world comes to a halt. He's my little hero.
When you outgrow what you love
I have always had an easy time feeling at home wherever I lived. However, life has always seemed to surprise me by providing me with housing-situations I didn't even know I longed for! I was perfectly happy living in a large flat with my daughter in Stockholm until Henke came along and joined our family. We decided to buy a house together, and when I opened the front door the first time, when I walked in to the large garden it held, I just felt so much joy and comfort knowing “This is OURS! We can stay here as long as we want, nobody can touch us here. This is our private sanctuary!”
But after 11 years, we outgrew that experience too. It was very tough for me to say goodbye to that house where we had started our family together, and it kind of took me by surprise, as I was so ready to move back to Denmark to stay closer to my parents and the people I feel most connected to. I really loved that house! I really loved that garden; That gnarly pear-tree and the abundant Lilac-bushes where I charged my Sacred Oils and held many ceremonies with the Fae and the moon. And I would definitely miss my magical hut in the garden that held all my sacred tools and that was my private temple when I worked my magic.
But then we found our new home here in Denmark. It was brilliantly perfect for us. It was a 10 minutes drive from my parents, with a small village-school for Tino, and was practically newly built with all the facilities we needed. AND it had stairs ;) (To explain somewhat; both my daughter and I have this ridiculous feeling that a house with stairs is the epitome of a home! Somehow I feel really grown-up walking those stairs up and down – and my daughter has fascinatingly played in and under stairs during her childhood whenever she was given the chance. So – now we have those stairs at home. SO perfect!)
the kitchen counter
And I need to tell you about the kitchen counter. When I first saw the house (or actually a completely identical one that was free at the time) in person, absolutely everything was totally to my liking from the brightness of the white walls, high ceilings and huge windows to the French doors all over the house. I had the hugest grin over my face as we walked through the house. It had all the room we needed and then some, and the office? Well, it was almost TOO beautiful, I felt, and have kept saying.
(Because an office doesn't need to be that beautiful, right?! Or wrong, as it turned out. A beautiful office-space is EXACTLY what I need for my sacred space, I now realize. It fills my heart with song, and its spaciousness and luminosity affects my mood so positively when I work here. Its absolutely gorgeous). The ONLY thing that I felt so-so about, was the kitchen bench. It was made of a spotted, grey artificial material, and well, I would have wished it to be a natural cosy kind of work-space instead.
And then we moved in. I walked into the kitchen, and darn, what had happened to the kitchen counter??! The standard grey kitchen-bench, was changed with a brown, wooden one. Gasp!! Woot?! I ran my hand over it, and laughed with tears in my eyes. Yes, it was slightly worn and needed to be oiled or sanded slightly, but it felt cushy and warm in contrast to the grey plastic'y one. Wow. The Universe really knows all our wishes to the smallest detail! I felt so seen and so loved. And amazed.
So here I am. Sitting in the brightness of my office space and feeling waves of love and gratefulness wash over me. I am so darned favored by the Universe. By the Gods. And as I have come to see it; By myself. I have learnt and walked into a space of a greater self-acceptance and self-love. I have learnt to open up and receive – to realize that it's OK, it's even WONDERFUL to have more than enough. To have that extra beauty – abundance and support. To not have to just have enough and worry that if will last. And my present house is the biggest testimony to that. In so many ways it has stretched me and challenged me, but it was time now! And I have risen to the challenge and accepted it as graciously and gratefully as I have mustered.
And I must have been doing something right, for here I am, sitting in my office at my new desk, with yellow roses (from my daughter) at my side, a lit candle, some bottles of my Sacred Oils and some chosen crystals beside the keyboard writing and connecting with the Universe and You. And I feel my passion and dream living inside me, moving and stretching itself towards those luminous men and women that wants to walk that same path of breaking boundaries of self-love and accepting more abundance and more love into their lives. My head is full with visions and ideas to make it come true and solid in this world, and I feel in my heart that this is the year when I am going to connect with so many of you in a new and concrete way!
I have longed for more connection and community during the last years, and this was also one of the reasons for our move. I keep seeing and feeling how my heart connects into this beautiful grid of love – this warm supportive circle of sisters and brothers. And I know this is part of my Souls plan for me, and that the time is now. So in appreciation, expectation and love, I open my heart and stand here ready and waiting to see who will come. It might be you, dear reader. And if it is, I say welcome, and I see you as the beautiful, radiant soul you are, and tell you that we are one.