Paying my bills with Abraham
Line, it isn't really that it is boring, as much as that you - again - are focusing in the dread of what "might become".
For you don't find your home, the eating, feeding and dressing yourself and your family boring, do you?
No, it is rather the projecting of all the fear, insecurity; the "not-being-enough" of your life that is.
The not being capable enough
not seeing enough
not understanding enough
not HAVING enough
that month after month is projected on that dratted pile of bills, on the action of doing, of sitting down and finding the "not being enough" overshadowing the action of filling in and sending off money you feel you don't have into issues you feel you don't have any joy in!
See? Shipping that last pile of bills - taking a last goodbye - into a black hole.
A re-cycle of keeping up the joy and safety of your home, lives and family!
Think of the paying of your bills like sending energy to
if you will, everything you HAVE chosen to have in your life at this point of your journey! A cycle where you keep up the joy and safety of your home, lives and family!
And by the way; have you noticed that you use the very same word for notes of debt ("bills") as notes of value ("bills")?
Well, that's because, in truth, they aren't different. They are the same energy - so why focus on the negative pole of it where there's also a positive pole?
THERE ARE NO BAD CHOICES!
Listen to that and HEAR it!
Yes, we know we are swearing in the church now, so to speak, but this is absolutely how we see it.
We think it would be hilarious and wonderful to spend a months salary on soap-bubbles and balloons. If that gives you joy! And yes, there are absolutely ways to make this happen to produce only joy. We see you are doubting it, but we tell you we have seen it happening. Perhaps not with soap-bubbles and balloons, but with items that to other people are just as frivolous and silly.
The box of "having to be normal"
And yes, we are still all about experiencing and making choices that make your heart sing; That YOU are the only one to make! We love to participate in that; to join the exuberance and joy of experiencing new choices, doings and feelings!
People feel so restricted, guilty and ashamed if they DO venture outside that box of what others feel are "normal". And for sure, there is plenty of shame, guilt and "not-being-enough" in that pool where people gather the energy of "Having to be normal". But you are outside that box, you see! So venturing into that pool, for you, will feel extra painful for several reasons. So our advice would be; Don't go there. Simply that.
You know, if it doesn't make you feel good?
Ah, we see you are now connecting to the not-so-good-feelings you experience when paying your bills. So let's look at that. We are for most part talking about feelings. The emotions of not-feeling-good, is connected for you to paying bills. It isn't the paying bills in itself that IS bad - sure, you are also free to engage in the common sharing of the "not-being-enough" when paying bills, and that will certainly augment your feelings - but we are not encouraging nor discouraging you to DO or NOT do any activities, simply asking you to focus on your feelings connected to said activities, and the changing of those.
In other contexts, we have introduces the concept of "choosing another disc", but for you, we will explain it like so:
Look closer, or realize, that what you actually like about the activity or situation, and then focus on that.
For loving and accepting your life?
Focus on what you love.
Infuse that or those areas with the energy of attention.
The rest, as they say, could be history.