OK, so I think I got it (again).
At least a part of it!
The other day I was speaking with a friend about wows and how we found it so baffling the whole thing about meeting, feeling it's eternal, making wows, breaking up...that entire thing?!
It got me thinking. And this particular episode I had when I was kind of involved with this person on an emotional basis recently – the heart-break involved, the strong feelings of separation and feelings of loss that appeared in spite of the deep knowing that we really were never separated at all - well, there is always expansion as long as we live, and today I kind of got it:
At our core, we are eternal beings that have no sense of separation or time at all.
We are all love, we all have a profound feeling of oneness (in spite of the deep feeling of oneness only truly can appear if you have been through and felt separation and isolation!) and feel nothing but bliss. Then enter earth and 3D reality. Enter time and space. Auch...! What just happened there?! And here we are trying to navigate and live our lives as best as we can. Our hearts are kind of half shut-down, and pain and darkness is a part of our everyday.
Then we meet the One!
We fall in love.
The world makes total sense again.
We remember who we are.
We are seen and discover ourselves as for the first time.
The world is reborn, our hearts sing and we are empowered and feel we can conquer the world!
We know why we are here.
And our only true desire is to merge with the One.
To melt together on all planes of existence; to share a future and know deep in our hearts that we will never truly be separated again.
So what's this all about, really?!
I think what happens is that this person that somehow touch our heart-strings in just the right way with that particular mix of flaws and perfections, and we suddenly remember who we are! Our hearts are burst wide open, fear disappears, and we suddenly remember that LOVE is the most important, that we are eternal beings, that there is nothing more important that the now, and that I AM in fact, this wondrous, beautiful, amazingly luminous person.
In the eyes of that other person we see ourselves.
We meet our true essence, we remember our authentic selves!
So there we are, knowing that everything is about love, that nothing else really matters, and that we are united and oneness forever; And that's what we now start acting from!
So hence the disease of “blind love” where we try to integrate our infinite beings into this world and act accordingly!
We act as if nothing else matters. Because nothing else truly does!! Only love is real, and only love matters. This we KNOW deep in our hearts, and this is our true nature, and when we fall in love, we simply remember!! But if we ACT like it, for reals, in this 3D world?!
We act like we are eternal beings and forever united. (Because we are)
We make wows. We think and KNOW that we will be together forever! We promise before god and every person on the earth, because we just KNOW, we just know, know deep in our hearts that nothing can separate us!
We act like that other person is the center of the world and my life depends on her.
Because we know the world falls apart if there is separation. We just know that life wouldn't mean anything if this infinite Oneness was broken.
We act like we can do anything and that the world is our oyster.
And we remember!
We finally remember!!
We remember who we are;
We remember that we are divine, eternal and infinite beings of power and love.
So why should I limit myself and my life?!
And while my heart is open, while I am channeling my higher Self, my Source and divine Love all at once, everything seems possible, all fear is driven out and life seems to hold magical possibilities abound.
And then, one day, sooner or later (even though we have solemly sworn it would never happen!) we seem to forget again.
The Divine hide-and-seek
Just as soon as we see a glimpse of who we are and revel in that divine connection, we kind of forget. Start seeing faults, start fearing that feeling, that love, that connection will go away again. And sometimes it feels like it does.
So many promises are broken. So many wows are dissolved. So many hearts get broken and so many times we tell ourselves not to ever do that to ourselves again. That love-thing we do, where we act stupidly, irrational and god-like.
And it's actually a good thing that we forget.
Because we are here on earth to experience ourselves as separate, we are here on earth to EXPAND divine consciousness by re-membering ourselves as divine – as god. And so the hide-and-seek continues. Remembering, forgetting. Discovering – expanding the consciousness by experiencing the realm in another way, as individuals in a realm of polarities.
But being in love – remembering what we are – this is what we need to stay sane and alive here on earth. So feel how it really is to be our true selves – to incorporate that new wisdom and knowledge and those experiences of separateness, darkness and pain to expand our awareness of the opposite, to experience love, oneness and bliss to such a greater extent.
Remembering who we are as love.
And as we go through that heart-break, that separation, that dissolvement of wows, promises of connections, why it truly feels so bad, is because our inner being knows that there is no separation while we act on the opposite. That schism – that working against our core of truth – that destroys us in some way. Our true selves knows that that person is not different, is not apart from myself. So that actually going through the motions of moving away from them – from that love in my life - sealing the separateness with harsh words, dissolving that unity by words, documents and stamps, utterly and agonizingly tears at our hearts and inner beings because all those actions are only really affirming a big, huge, heart-wrenching lie; that we are separate!
Because your inner self knows that you WILL be with this person forever. In eternity. Your souls are infinite and always united. The bigger part of the two / three /all of you, are always oneness and blissfully united in love. So that's why it hurts so much! Because we are at the core of our beings here, when we act on and experience the dualities of love, fear, oneness and separation.
But polarity is our game, and we play it out for a reason.
Our inner beings are never ever afraid, hurting or the slightest worried what we are up to. Our inner being knows the game, the rules and the limits of the game, and only relishes in the expansion, the adventure, the contrasts that pull our hearts into even greater love, into greater awareness!
So try to remember now.
When it seems like love is lost, doomed, crushed or just separated.
It's just a lie.
A very temporary deception.
Because in truth, we are all love, we are all one. And that special soul, that particular being you're yearning for, is just a reflection of your Self.
And while we speak of that – take back your power! Take back the need to see yourself through the eyes of someone else! If you want to give yourself the greatest gift of all, you realize that it is the adoring gaze of your inner being, your Self you really need! And if you're hurting because of separation, it is only because you have forgotten that primal, original connection. And it is so easily restored. You have it all within, darling. And it is truly all you need. The love, the deep, unending fountain of connection and love is right there in your heart.
And THAT is what you want.
THAT's WHO you want.
What you truly need first;
To meet the eyes and align with the soul of your higher self knowing that nothing EVER can or will separate you.